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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 11, 2016 at 11:32 pm
(December 11, 2016 at 11:10 pm)Jello Wrote: I don't feel particularly unique, aside from uniquely shitty, but i doubt that's what you want to be hearing.
You're halfway there! 
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 11, 2016 at 11:34 pm
Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
I just feel so sad all the time, like i just feel like i live such a shitty, lonely existence, and i hate it. I feel angry too, because i feel like i put so much effort into everything, just to go unnoticed. And i'm just really, really exhausted at this point in time.
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 11, 2016 at 11:58 pm
(December 11, 2016 at 11:34 pm)Jello Wrote: Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
I just feel so sad all the time, like i just feel like i live such a shitty, lonely existence, and i hate it. I feel angry too, because i feel like i put so much effort into everything, just to go unnoticed. And i'm just really, really exhausted at this point in time.
Dude, that's high school. Wait till you get to uni, and your hard work pays direct dividends. You can forge your own path and be your own person, pursue the things that make you happy.
I really hope you feel better, Jelloman. I think you rock something cool.
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 12:21 am
Cheer up jello, more people care about you than you may realize. 
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 1:07 am
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(December 7, 2016 at 1:00 pm)AkiraTheFighter24 Wrote: (December 7, 2016 at 12:33 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: What are the thoughts in your head?
Oh nothing big just that I'm a failure. I can't keep a job much less find one. I can't provide for myself. I'm a burden on my mom. Nobody cares about me, I'll never amount to anything. I always over react to things. The only use I am to people is being a steeping stone for their success. There's other stuff as well I just can't remember at this point. Which is another thing I have to deal with. My crappy mind and body that just so weak and stupid. *sigh* I always overthink things, things that could happen, things that already happen. It's always a chore to get myself to realize it's not gonna happen. I'm so fed up of fighting it.
(December 7, 2016 at 11:52 am)Bella Morte Wrote: Dude, go see your GP and maybe he can refer you to a therapist?
They have free psychiatrists, but you need to be visiting a paid one in order to get a recommendation to see a free one. What's worse is that the free psychiatrist is the one that made my dad get worse, so I don't trust psychiatrist or therapists for that matter.
My bold.
I can't even get that right.
I've not only been suicidal before but I've attempted it. It's not worth it (and I could have died). It's not worth it at all. If I hadn't attempted it before I would very much be attempting it now, yes, but I have attempted it before and no I won't be attempting it now nor will I ever be attempting it again. It's not worth it. Trust me. It's not worth it. I'm too depressed to kill myself. I deserve to be miserable.
So hopefully the point you will get from this post is the point that is being made: That it's not worth it. Because it really is not worth it. So don't slit your wrists and don't attempt suicide. Thank you, I love you, you are awesome and unique like many many people and I wish more people saw that I see them as them (someone to be loved as themselves as much as any other).
(December 11, 2016 at 11:34 pm)Jello Wrote: Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
I just feel so sad all the time, like i just feel like i live such a shitty, lonely existence, and i hate it. I feel angry too, because i feel like i put so much effort into everything, just to go unnoticed. And i'm just really, really exhausted at this point in time.
I feel exactly the same fucking way.
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 3:59 am
Once again, thanks everyone for supporting me. I know it doesn't sound like much but i really appreciate that you guys are willing to be there for me. 
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 7:17 am
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(December 11, 2016 at 10:29 pm)Jello Wrote: (December 11, 2016 at 5:50 am)Vic Wrote: I would hug you but jellos are sticky. What's up?
I had a massive argument with my family that almost turned somewhat violent. It was not good. That and i just naturally feel kinda meaningless, because y'know, 1 in 7 billion means little if you think about it.
Sorry for taking forever to reply, was at work till 10pm here. Fucking hate 10 hours shifts.
In other news, i'm still in a pretty low mood, for the few that care.
I get that. But meaning is just a wishy washy thing humans give to things. There are people around you to give you meaning. You mean something to them. That's not meaningless.
Hang in there. Existential dread fades over time if you don't dwell on it. Just embrace it.
(December 11, 2016 at 11:20 pm)Jello Wrote: Maybe Uni will help, but that'll be in 2018...
Also, defintely that.
Just gotta ride it out for now. The best part about the past is when it's over you'll never have to go back.
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 10:35 am
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(December 12, 2016 at 1:07 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote: My bold.
I can't even get that right.
I've not only been suicidal before but I've attempted it. It's not worth it (and I could have died). It's not worth it at all. If I hadn't attempted it before I would very much be attempting it now, yes, but I have attempted it before and no I won't be attempting it now nor will I ever be attempting it again. It's not worth it. Trust me. It's not worth it. I'm too depressed to kill myself. I deserve to be miserable.
So hopefully the point you will get from this post is the point that is being made: That it's not worth it. Because it really is not worth it. So don't slit your wrists and don't attempt suicide. Thank you, I love you, you are awesome and unique like many many people and I wish more people saw that I see them as them (someone to be loved as themselves as much as any other).
Thanks. I did attempt it 3 times. Twice with a razor blade on my wrist, both of those times someone found me. And once recently with sleeping pills. The amount I took wasn't as lethal as I thought it was. After the last failed attempt I felt embarrassed because I had already said goodbye to everyone.
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 10:38 am
Gall bladder comes out tomorrow. What could possibly go wrong?
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RE: How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?
December 12, 2016 at 10:38 am
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(December 11, 2016 at 11:34 pm)Jello Wrote: Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
I just feel so sad all the time, like i just feel like i live such a shitty, lonely existence, and i hate it. I feel angry too, because i feel like i put so much effort into everything, just to go unnoticed. And i'm just really, really exhausted at this point in time.
I feel similar as well. As I've grown to love the freedom of being alone, because of my depression and anxiety, it always comes crashing down on me. I hate being around people because of how different I am to them and because of how I used many times by them. Yet still I wish I had someone close too that knows that I'm hurting and just be there for me. I'm really fucked up tbh. Honestly though we just have to remember that we only need ourselves, our own approval and love and no one else.
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