(July 2, 2016 at 1:11 pm)0000 Wrote: Alright, I am going right after my emotions and call it an LP clusterfuck. I will remain here, but not posting as much, I blame losty and her sexyness seducing me back into the forum. so yeah, don't mind my inactivity. I  will  be here reading, but I found myself unable to stay away. Gah, I have no moral fiber.

(July 3, 2016 at 10:13 pm)Emjay Wrote:

(July 2, 2016 at 1:11 pm)0000 Wrote: Alright, I am going right after my emotions and call it an LP clusterfuck. I will remain here, but not posting as much, I blame losty and her sexyness seducing me back into the forum. so yeah, don't mind my inactivity. I  will  be here reading, but I found myself unable to stay away. Gah, I have no moral fiber.

I'm sorry LP, I didn't see all of this till now (late to the party as usual  )... now I understand all the zeroes   I'm so sorry that things felt so bad for you that it led to want to zero out your account and permanently leave here. I hope you know that you'll always have a friend in me - if you want one - and that I care about you very much   But I think - but it's just my opinion - that you should do what's best for your mental health and if that means making a clean break from here for a while, or even permanently, then it's worth considering. I'd miss you but if all it's doing is bringing you down and making you angry, and where you see that as a particular problem in your life, then perhaps being here only feeds it and makes recovery more difficult. Tbh I feel kind of similar and that I might also benefit from a clean break for a while, because I'm not liking the anger I'm feeling either. Anyway, all I'd say is just do what's best for you. Love you  

(July 3, 2016 at 8:34 pm)MysticKnight Wrote:

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I got an A+ in the 6 week course I took in summer (condensed from a 4 month course). It was tough. I realize I can't be investing time in these forums anymore. I did good because I stayed away from everything but school. I want to finish my degree.  I will be going taking another course this semester as well and then four courses in the fall.  I lost a lot of weight and am the lightest I've been in many years. Everything is going good and I feel a lot of that is because I spent less time here and in other forums.

I think there isn't much more to be done here anymore on my part.  People are aware of my various arguments, and I am aware of your responses to them. I can't learn much more from debating here. I learned a lot over the years through debating here but things have reached a plateau.

If you guys were in a room where your parents were getting insulted, over and over again, it would be hard to keep your cool.

People forget how much God means to some people.  I been trying to keep cool and calm collected, but I feel that a hidden rage is growing and bitterness. May God temper it with forbearance and compassion.

I in the past as a Deist tried to convince myself that there is no merit of believing in God over not believing him at one point.   I tried to reason against all the arguments of why God would send Messengers as well.

I even tried to reason away with God.

The truth is I don't know what I been doing all this time. It feels truly that Satan is making a mockery of me and my life.  

He had me dead but somehow,  I'm coming back to life.  I spent way too much time on these forums and other forums.

Guys I tried my best to reason away with Islam, I did many times even after coming back to Islam, but I know it's the truth for reasons I never really got to explain thoroughly and no one really want to get into the depth of the discussion with anyways.  

I know it to be true and it doesn't matter what my desires say, it doesn't matter how strange it seems to many people.  The Quran is not like any other book. I testify there is no God but God, and Mohammad is his Messenger.

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Losty, my love, I will miss you the most

Thanks for the time you guys spent engaging with me.

With peace and love.

(July 3, 2016 at 10:24 pm)Bella Morte Wrote:

(July 3, 2016 at 10:13 pm)Emjay Wrote: I'm sorry LP, I didn't see all of this till now (late to the party as usual  )... now I understand all the zeroes   I'm so sorry that things felt so bad for you that it led to want to zero out your account and permanently leave here. I hope you know that you'll always have a friend in me - if you want one - and that I care about you very much   But I think - but it's just my opinion - that you should do what's best for your mental health and if that means making a clean break from here for a while, or even permanently, then it's worth considering. I'd miss you but if all it's doing is bringing you down and making you angry, and where you see that as a particular problem in your life, then perhaps being here only feeds it and makes recovery more difficult. Tbh I feel kind of similar and that I might also benefit from a clean break for a while, because I'm not liking the anger I'm feeling either. Anyway, all I'd say is just do what's best for you. Love you  

I'm sorry too, LP!  

(July 3, 2016 at 10:45 pm)Emjay Wrote:

(July 3, 2016 at 10:24 pm)Bella Morte Wrote: I'm sorry too, LP!  

Let's just all smoke a Bible joint and chill out