Can I just say: I'm just here still talking to you for the entertainment at this point. You're just one in a long, long list of dudes who message me because of my profile pics and my dresses, and you all have this weird idea of what I am and no wish to know the reality. Not because that reality is bad - but because your own issues make you incapable of actually being a giving partner. You're just looking for a distraction.

I'm not the Lewis Black version of a Manic Pixie Dream girl here to drag you out of your depression post-divorce, or your boredom in your current relationship.

That I'm too excited for words. That something something has power. It's powerful.

On another note...
That sparks will be the least of it. I'm holding the best for last, and last won't seem to ever end.

On another note:
Can I just say? No I can't. Not even here. Lol! Woops. Bad Ivy.

Can I just say: You're much better looking in person, and I'm shocked by that.

I mean typically, people are anything from broke down to decent looking in person, but just have their selfie game snatched so they look gorgeous on instagram and Tinder. This guy though looks 6/10 on photos and literally went to 10/10 when I saw him in person for the first time, so weird.

Were you just not trying on Tinder to give the other guys a fair shot? I'm confused by this.

Insomnia ramblings

Can I just state for the purpose of honesty that most of you are absolutely full of shit and need a reality check?

Honestly.

Are we here for reality or for comfort that is not merited except for the mere comfort that can be discovered elsewhere?

I swear, I have met smarter people.

Just sayin' -- I'm cool with "just friends", but I do want more. If I don't get more, no sweat. But I want it.

(July 24, 2016 at 11:13 pm)Maelstrom Wrote: Can I just state for the purpose of honesty that most of you are absolutely full of shit and need a reality check?

Honestly.

Are we here for reality or for comfort that is not merited except for the mere comfort that can be discovered elsewhere?

I swear, I have met smarter people.

Can I just say -- Great, go hang out with them ... see how long they tolerate a shitbird.

(July 25, 2016 at 1:37 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:

(July 24, 2016 at 11:13 pm)Maelstrom Wrote: Can I just state for the purpose of honesty that most of you are absolutely full of shit and need a reality check?

Honestly.

Are we here for reality or for comfort that is not merited except for the mere comfort that can be discovered elsewhere?

I swear, I have met smarter people.

Can I just say -- Great, go hang out with them ... see how long they tolerate a shitbird.

Can I just say and I'm just being honest I have a turtley bum bum.

Can I just say....

The fakeness with some people is truly astonishing.

Oh... and I hate tests. Like the one I have to take tonight.

I'm just about fucking done with this. I'm tired of never being good enough for anybody. I try and I try and I try to fucking be nice, and be friendly, and all that ever happens is i get used. "Oh, come find me if you're feeling down, you always help me" meaningless fucking words obviously, i've never seen someone back out quicker in my entire life. I really wonder what would have happened if i had done that to you? Instead of letting you use me to feed your narcissistic bullshit, and allowing you to step on me to get closer to the people i'm friends with because they're obviously so much fucking better than i am. I'm sick to death of this, even though i know it won't end because i'm too fucking lonely to get up and do something about it because all that'll do is leave me even more alone. I'm just so tired of all this. I'm tired of feeling so meaningless and pointless and useless. I'm tired of crying about all this bullshit. It just fucking sucks.

Can I just say and I'm just being honest. You can't help but be so fucking awesome and I love it.