CIJS -- be happy I'm not your boss.

(August 15, 2016 at 2:31 pm)Faith No More Wrote:

(August 15, 2016 at 2:21 pm)robvalue Wrote: I don't know. All over the place. I don't know what's going on with me. I have my initial interview for therapy this week, to find out what kind of help is best for me.

Anxiety is definitely playing a huge role as well as the depression.

I thought you were already in therapy?

I was a while back, and I've been waiting for this initial consultation to come through this time. It really helped me last time I had it, but I've slowly slid back again and personal issues are making it really tough right now.

I can be a good listener.
Just not with people who talk and think slowly.
It's unfortunate that, no matter how I try to hide it, you can see my impatience and I am well aware that this slows you down even more.
I want you to know that I think we are of equal intelligence.
But as hard as it is for you to speed your brain up, it is just as hard for me to slow mine down.

I'm strangely fixated on you, and I don't even know why at this point.

This is fucking weird.

I'm tired and I find your behavior to be asinine and childish. Please don't call me anymore. Please seriously...I know I said it was fine but it's not.

(August 15, 2016 at 7:22 pm)robvalue Wrote: I was a while back, and I've been waiting for this initial consultation to come through this time. It really helped me last time I had it, but I've slowly slid back again and personal issues are making it really tough right now.

Well, good luck with that. I went without therapy for a while, but I think at this point I'm pretty much resigned to be in it indefinitely.

Thank you I could only have so many sessions on the NHS and I can't afford private.

I'm sorry to hear it's become a necessity to you

It's absolutely disgusting that Britain is sending so much money abroad when it could be invested in our NHS. Hope they come to their senses and give you anymore therapy you need, Rob.

(August 15, 2016 at 8:26 pm)robvalue Wrote: Thank you I could only have so many sessions on the NHS and I can't afford private.

I'm sorry to hear it's become a necessity to you

It is what it is. Sure, it's no fun having to deal with my out of whack emotions on a daily basis, but I just try to keep telling myself that life could be so much worse. I also have a lot of good things going for me like a great family and a nice roof over my head. I've learned that my perspective on things really affects how I feel.

Sorry you can't afford private. My parents pay for mine (which I now have to go to twice a week), because they're the ones that fucked me up in the first place. It's the least they could do.

Hear, hear -- I don't suffer chronic depression, but when I am down I find compiling a gratitude list helps me out.