Feel better soon, Thump.

P.S. I really miss Gemini a lot. I wonder sometimes if she'll ever come back and she's one of the best friends I've ever had.

I hope she's okay. Last I heard she has been without alcohol for a long while which is fantastic! Oh and she became a theist not that that matters! She's awesome!

(May 3, 2017 at 9:11 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote: Feel better soon, Thump.

P.S. I really miss Gemini a lot. I wonder sometimes if she'll ever come back and she's one of the best friends I've ever had.

I hope she's okay. Last I heard she has been without alcohol for a long while which is fantastic! Oh and she became a theist not that that matters! She's awesome!

She's doing just fine. Just like with all of us her life goes on, mostly good, some could be better, but she's getting thru it without drinking.

(April 15, 2017 at 12:34 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: Yup ... addiction can strike anyone low. Anyone.

It is what it does. It is when we are low and suffering it hits the most. You know what to do, raise your weary head, wipe the dirt off yourself and keep trying. Hell knows how many relapses I had. Fortunately, nearly 15 years later, it has become kind of a past dream. Still haunts me once or twice a year, but given heroins availability and my breaking of contacts that could suply it, it has been easy to keep on the wagon.

I wonder if someone offered me some in a dark moment if I would fall again. Probably. And then scold myself for that.

Head high Thump.

The addiction monster still lives within my brain. When it emerges from it's hole, most often it's fairly anoerxic and is easily whooped. But there are rare instances when it comes out all pumped up and in a steroid rage. That's when I have the most to remember and work to do.

Oh and by head high I mean not "high", but up. Just because you took a punch, the fight isn't lost.

(May 3, 2017 at 11:58 am)mh.brewer Wrote:

(May 3, 2017 at 9:11 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote: Feel better soon, Thump.

P.S. I really miss Gemini a lot. I wonder sometimes if she'll ever come back and she's one of the best friends I've ever had.

I hope she's okay. Last I heard she has been without alcohol for a long while which is fantastic! Oh and she became a theist not that that matters! She's awesome!

She's doing just fine. Just like with all of us her life goes on, mostly good, some could be better, but she's getting thru it without drinking.

Wait... you've heard from her?

I'm glad she's okay.

(May 3, 2017 at 12:41 pm)LastPoet Wrote:

(April 15, 2017 at 12:34 am)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: Yup ... addiction can strike anyone low. Anyone.

It is what it does. It is when we are low and suffering it hits the most. You know what to do, raise your weary head, wipe the dirt off yourself and keep trying. Hell knows how many relapses I had. Fortunately, nearly 15 years later, it has become kind of a past dream. Still haunts me once or twice a year, but given heroins availability and my breaking of contacts that could suply it, it has been easy to keep on the wagon.

I wonder if someone offered me some in a dark moment if I would fall again. Probably. And then scold myself for that.

Head high Thump.

I'm back on course. I built my rationalization and that justified me getting sidetracked, but support from you guys amongst others is certainly helping me, and lord knows I appreciate it. You guys know where I'm coming from and that means the world to me, because it allows to to face up to a failure without shame. Thank you, and everyone here, so much.

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(May 3, 2017 at 11:58 am)mh.brewer Wrote: She's doing just fine. Just like with all of us her life goes on, mostly good, some could be better, but she's getting thru it without drinking.

If and when you talk with her again, please give her my regards, and congrats on her continued sobriety. I sure miss her here.

(May 4, 2017 at 3:06 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote:

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(May 3, 2017 at 11:58 am)mh.brewer Wrote: She's doing just fine. Just like with all of us her life goes on, mostly good, some could be better, but she's getting thru it without drinking.

If and when you talk with her again, please give her my regards, and congrats on her continued sobriety. I sure miss her here.

I always have and will continue.

You're a good guy, Brewer, if ironically named.

(May 4, 2017 at 5:02 pm)Thumpalumpacus Wrote: You're a good guy, Brewer, if ironically named.

Thanks. Back at ya. 

I tried to live up to it, as it turns out, that was a mistake.