I've considered becoming an atheist. I still am. Frankly who gives a shit because while I considered myself Christian, I did so because I was told to. I never spent much time thinking about it. So even if I am still Christian, what does it matter? I don't even practice the damn thing.
This is probably going to be my only post here. And frankly, I'm smart, but I'm irrational. I'm the guy on the bus constantly thinking to himself everyday, sometimes getting up to literally just pace. Though I'm also a very angry person. The long and short of it is that I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression years ago, and really there's many types of it. They're rarely seen sad because they only act that way when by themselves. For me, I can only help but see the worst in people, everything really. Despite having reasonable grades, spending hours every night being self taught on the design of various Space Launch vehicles, I drew the short end of everyone's straw. I was called again an again, along the lines of stupid, incapable of higher thought, and a hamper to society's progress. And ironically, not by atheists. Pat yourselves on the back.
You see, I didn't have much to look up to other than being very fucking good at math and science. The only person I could ever call a friend was my physical science teacher. And even more funny enough, I had a very good comprehension towards science, including biology and as such evolution as a whole. Though it was never my interest, because I'm interested in things that take us away from life in general, called a rocket. In fact, I spent more time thinking about nuclear weapons that biology. Yet despite this, my college experience is anything but bearable. I've been shoved away from school for three weeks, only to have to make up those three weeks without any lecturing or help. I've been banned from study halls, tutoring centers and the library because I was very fucking angry. And I was arrested because I threatened a teacher who pretty much was as helpful as God.
My personal issue is that I have an obsession. Because of my failures in life, I've become insecure, and that's where the meat of depression gets in. There is in truth, allot of anger, allot of paranoia, and the inability to think rationally. And I have allot of that. I can only assume the worst of people, and I spend day and night thinking and imagining people gossiping and plotting against me. Wanting to humiliate me even further. Even though they showed no signs of that intent. And we know about the bad apples on all sides, including yours. I would eventually meet up with a very vocal atheist, one who probably decided to become one just for the sake of being smart or pissing others off. Okay, make that a few. And considering the events that already ensued, I am not willing to be nice to other atheists and anti theists.
To be very brief, I've come to hate atheists, and anti theists in general. Now, the amount of people willing to read on at this point could probably fit in a bath tub. I pretty much threatened allot of my friends for various reasons, but those who were anti theists or atheists received the worst of me at some point or another. I need to stop doing this and get on with my pathetic life.
Okay, so there you go. So, how about all of you tell me about how I'm going to become a terreests or sum stoopid shit lolololo!1111!!! Presumably so I can hate you more. And if you don't, I'll assume God exists.
This is probably going to be my only post here. And frankly, I'm smart, but I'm irrational. I'm the guy on the bus constantly thinking to himself everyday, sometimes getting up to literally just pace. Though I'm also a very angry person. The long and short of it is that I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression years ago, and really there's many types of it. They're rarely seen sad because they only act that way when by themselves. For me, I can only help but see the worst in people, everything really. Despite having reasonable grades, spending hours every night being self taught on the design of various Space Launch vehicles, I drew the short end of everyone's straw. I was called again an again, along the lines of stupid, incapable of higher thought, and a hamper to society's progress. And ironically, not by atheists. Pat yourselves on the back.
You see, I didn't have much to look up to other than being very fucking good at math and science. The only person I could ever call a friend was my physical science teacher. And even more funny enough, I had a very good comprehension towards science, including biology and as such evolution as a whole. Though it was never my interest, because I'm interested in things that take us away from life in general, called a rocket. In fact, I spent more time thinking about nuclear weapons that biology. Yet despite this, my college experience is anything but bearable. I've been shoved away from school for three weeks, only to have to make up those three weeks without any lecturing or help. I've been banned from study halls, tutoring centers and the library because I was very fucking angry. And I was arrested because I threatened a teacher who pretty much was as helpful as God.
My personal issue is that I have an obsession. Because of my failures in life, I've become insecure, and that's where the meat of depression gets in. There is in truth, allot of anger, allot of paranoia, and the inability to think rationally. And I have allot of that. I can only assume the worst of people, and I spend day and night thinking and imagining people gossiping and plotting against me. Wanting to humiliate me even further. Even though they showed no signs of that intent. And we know about the bad apples on all sides, including yours. I would eventually meet up with a very vocal atheist, one who probably decided to become one just for the sake of being smart or pissing others off. Okay, make that a few. And considering the events that already ensued, I am not willing to be nice to other atheists and anti theists.
To be very brief, I've come to hate atheists, and anti theists in general. Now, the amount of people willing to read on at this point could probably fit in a bath tub. I pretty much threatened allot of my friends for various reasons, but those who were anti theists or atheists received the worst of me at some point or another. I need to stop doing this and get on with my pathetic life.
Okay, so there you go. So, how about all of you tell me about how I'm going to become a terreests or sum stoopid shit lolololo!1111!!! Presumably so I can hate you more. And if you don't, I'll assume God exists.
