I'm an atheist,but spirituality scrambled my thoughts.

[FractalEternalWheel]

I have never believed in god, I was raised this way to follow science evidence and logic,but I have been struggling to understand life why are we here,whats our mission,...I first studied nihilism but I got very depressed because of it views (maybe because they are true).So I got my hands on some "spiritual" books and they gave me some kind of comfort after reading them they showed me life in a different view,Its like I have been kissed by an lie. But I keep rethinking the things that books say and some of the things the book say clashes with my rational logic. But now I'm trapped in between if I return to my atheist views I will return to my sad,depressed,whats the point me but if I turn to spirituality I give reason to my life,I feel more happy, more alive,... Hope you can give me some help and advice. I'm still a teen so maybe this growing up thing is messing with my brain.I have also experimented with high marijuana and salvia dose and mushrooms and I hallucinated landscapes,I talked to the beings that were living there.,People say that those drugs mess up the normal functioning of the brain but if they mess up your brain you wouldn't see pure landscapes,beings you would just see some random colors,sounds,...flashes I have hard time explain psychedelic drugs I like to think that they connect us to other planet and being,can someone explain this. (I don't want to hear that stories about the harmful use of psychedelics drugs)

Thanks

[AstroNat]

You know, it's true what they say - ignorance is bliss. There are those who seek the truth and need justification for their beliefs and there are those who simply don't care. They believe what they believe without any evidence at all and they put it all on faith. It IS depressing sometimes, I totally get what you're saying. But wouldn't you rather know that what you believe is justified?

[FractalEternalWheel]

You know, it's true what they say - ignorance is bliss. There are those who seek the truth and need justification for their beliefs and there are those who simply don't care. They believe what they believe without any evidence at all and they put it all on faith. It IS depressing sometimes, I totally get what you're saying. But wouldn't you rather know that what you believe is justified?

yea my dad just said this: If you see the world as it is you can't get a reason to be depressed. But still whats the point with humans why does everything need to have meaning in order that our lives feel meaningful?

[pineapplebunnybounce]

Hi welcome.

In the words of Douglas Adams: "Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too?"

As for psychedelic drugs, I have yet to come across anything that suggest it is anything more than a manipulation of our minds. Isn't it fascinating that our brains are capable of so much despite being just a goo of cells? Isn't that enough?

[AstroNat]

We're rational, self aware beings. Walk, feed and love your dog and he'll be happy forever. Humans are much more complicated than that, but it doesn't mean that our lives have more meaning. The reason that we feel that we need more is because we have an imagined self importance. Living is the meaning of life, that's it.

[Minimalist]

but I have been struggling to understand life why are we here,whats our mission

It is only human ego which insists we have a purpose or a mission.

Mankind loves to think it is so fucking special.

[Tonus]

But now I'm trapped in between if I return to my atheist views I will return to my sad,depressed,whats the point me but if I turn to spirituality I give reason to my life,I feel more happy, more alive,... Hope you can give me some help and advice.

If turning to spirituality makes you feel better and helps you avoid depression, then turn to it. Find out what it is about spiritual thoughts that helps you to cope with life, and embrace that. If it helps you to overcome a mental block (ie, the depression caused by a nihilistic outlook) then it works for you. In time you may become more comfortable with your spirituality or you may become more comfortable without it.

Don't let the rigidity of one teaching or another force you down a path that makes life unbearable. The working of our minds is largely out of our control, but we can learn to work with what we have and be much happier as a result. Become a happy and confident person, and in time you will sort out the rest.

[FractalEternalWheel]

thanks for the replays , I already feel much better the quote from Douglas Adams is amazing thanks @pineapplebunnybounce for sharing it (are there any more similar quotes like that) @Minimalist: I haven't thought it this way are there any way we can kill the ego I haven't found any other way than to meditate daily and instead of thinking I we need WE
@AstroNat: Just like Alan Watts said “The meaning of life is just to be alive. It is so plain and so obvious and so simple. And yet, everybody rushes around in a great panic as if it were necessary to achieve something beyond themselves.”

P.S: I have found on reddit ♥ that I may be dealing with existential crisis,and with google I can overcome this.

Again thank you all for replaying

[Jacob(smooth)]

But now I'm trapped in between if I return to my atheist views I will return to my sad,depressed,whats the point me but if I turn to spirituality I give reason to my life,I feel more happy, more alive,... Hope you can give me some help and advice.

If turning to spirituality makes you feel better and helps you avoid depression, then turn to it. Find out what it is about spiritual thoughts that helps you to cope with life, and embrace that. If it helps you to overcome a mental block (ie, the depression caused by a nihilistic outlook) then it works for you. In time you may become more comfortable with your spirituality or you may become more comfortable without it.

First you steal my signature quote, then you reach down my throat and take the words from out of my mouth!

[Kayenneh]

Hey Fractal and welcome to AF! ^_^

Kudos for the Mandelbrot set, it is one of my favorites!