its a long story but ill try to make it as short as i can.
I was raised christian like most Americans. In other words taught about the great sky father before the age of reason. At 7 I was in a bible camp and with all the adults around me saying i should give my heart to Jesus and with my life a big fear of when I was going to f'k up next due to something i didn't know and get threatened with pain or banishment...I did. My thought (at 7) was that there was a divine spirit that would at least help me feel okay about myself and get through my childhood with my self esteem intact.
A big fat NO! No divine light. No spiritual strength. No results. Nothing changed. In fact the people who said they were "Christian" acted nothing like what Jesus taught (a very few people did okay but any faith or way of thinking has about the same ratio of good to bad people)
I tried for 7 years to be "Christian" to no avail.
At 14 y/o i was looking at the kitchen knife in my hand truly contemplating ending it all....Imagine that at 14.
I decided that I should try anything and everything else to make good of myself before giving up and if Jesus wouldn't help me, as i was led to believe by society, then I would do it myself.
I did....
In doing so i looked into other faiths and ways of thinking. In doing so i also incurred the wrath of my peers and authorities for rejecting Jesus. It was more important to THEM that I die with Jesus (and the knife) in my heart than to live a better and happier life with out him.
This my friend is my story. If your experience was better then good. I say what ever makes you a better person and happy in your life. As for me I choose logic and reason. they do not lie.
I was raised christian like most Americans. In other words taught about the great sky father before the age of reason. At 7 I was in a bible camp and with all the adults around me saying i should give my heart to Jesus and with my life a big fear of when I was going to f'k up next due to something i didn't know and get threatened with pain or banishment...I did. My thought (at 7) was that there was a divine spirit that would at least help me feel okay about myself and get through my childhood with my self esteem intact.
A big fat NO! No divine light. No spiritual strength. No results. Nothing changed. In fact the people who said they were "Christian" acted nothing like what Jesus taught (a very few people did okay but any faith or way of thinking has about the same ratio of good to bad people)
I tried for 7 years to be "Christian" to no avail.
At 14 y/o i was looking at the kitchen knife in my hand truly contemplating ending it all....Imagine that at 14.
I decided that I should try anything and everything else to make good of myself before giving up and if Jesus wouldn't help me, as i was led to believe by society, then I would do it myself.
I did....
In doing so i looked into other faiths and ways of thinking. In doing so i also incurred the wrath of my peers and authorities for rejecting Jesus. It was more important to THEM that I die with Jesus (and the knife) in my heart than to live a better and happier life with out him.
This my friend is my story. If your experience was better then good. I say what ever makes you a better person and happy in your life. As for me I choose logic and reason. they do not lie.
