Share Your Untestimony: Prayers that God didn't Answer

[Rhondazvous]

Good grief, I have too many to list.  This is one of the things that let me to atheism, of course.  There was this growing knowledge that no matter how much or how fervently I prayed, NOBODY WAS LISTENING.

Here's a recent one though. A friends young son, 27, brilliant, in his residency to be a pediatric oncologist, was diagnosed with colon cancer.  Everyone said that if God would help anybody, it would be this promising, upstanding, Xtian husband and father of 2.  They took him to the best clinics. He got everything medical science could give.  AND he had no less than 5 large churches holding special prayer services weekly for him.  He died 2 months ago.

The zinger that makes it worse for me is that I, too, was diagnosed with colon cancer - in the same month. I'm a cantankerous, childless, fat old lady. I only had an easy surgery and minimal chemo and I'm cancer-free.  Now, yeah, I'm an atheist, but I had a few moments over the last year when I did pray "IF you're there, you'll take ME!.  ME, not this promising young doctor with kids.  ME."  

I think that any deity capable of noticing would have agreed.

That's why I'm glad I started this thread because people are hurting and we're being told it's our fault if god doesn't answer our prayers.

We just wouldn't have these experiences if a loving god ran the world.
"Oh that happened to you because your distant ancestor ate a piece of fruit he wasn't supposed to and now I'm holding you responsible because he is dead."