Does Your Avatar Look Anything Like You?

[Rhondazvous]

I don't even know anymore. I'm at an odd place in life. All the little things that used to make up who I am, I have abandoned. Rexbex mentioned an identity crisis and I think I'm actually having one. The only thing that resembles me is the manner in which I'm dealing with the crisis, which is "meh, it happens." I have an odd perversion in enjoying watching things slip away. Always have. I have (well, used to have) a recurring dream where I'm in my old town, in a bike race, and everyone has left me behind and I feel left behind, so I think I purposely put myself in those situation to face my fears. I remember purposely not telling my parents about a school field trip so I could feel what it would be like to be left out. I find myself doing things like that more and more.

The thing is I'm pretty quick with a quip and people tend to like having me around, so on one hand, people see me as the goof-ball, life of the party type, and on the other, I like to defy those expectations and be curmudgeonly, which is a pretty curmudgeonly thing to do. So I guess in that respect, I resemble my avatar. Plus, I'm a humanoid duck.

Gee, all I saw was the duck. Guess if I look closer, the story goes deeper than the eye can see.