A doctrine of alienation

[Mystical]

Thank you all for your replies. It occurred to me that yes he probably is reliant on what he was taught via the organization that has helped him make positive changes in his life. I have no malice towards it now, I am at peace. If he needs a crutch to get his wounded body moving again then that's what crutches are for! One day he might drop the crutch and walk on his own. Till then I don't wish to intervene in his recovery. I don't hold out much hope for him though, that's why I said I mourned him long ago. My father too; I am not even sure whether I should put out a missing persons report on him. He has chosen to die and go to heaven rather than live here. I can't say I haven't had similar sentiments when I was a believer and at the darkest of hours.. But now I don't believe in an after life. (I merely hope) and that is what keeps me going forward, taking poison pills and Iv meds to keep my body from all out shutting itself down . We all find our own ways to keep going. I'm still proud of him for finally doing that! All on his own . I've decided to visit him with my mom this weekend, and bring him that house warming gift after all. Hopefully I don't endanger his recovery by being there, but I don't think love can hurt and that's all I want to do is love him. I'm glad I got some theists commenting instead of ignoring something like this. Thank you.