(October 25, 2015 at 12:07 pm)Neimenovic Wrote: I had to go to church today.
Despite my best (and successful) efforts to black it all out, the feeling of suffocation didn't leave me til I was out the door.
What fascinated me was this strange impression. Now, standing there as an unbeliever, when bits of the mass did sink in through my wall of frantic thoughts attempting to remember the build and functions of all parts of the human respiratory, circulatory, digestive and urinary systems, I noticed how much more insane everything the priest said sounded, and how much more evident the marketing psychological tricks were to the not blindfolded eye.
Glad I don't have to be there anymore.
Yeah, after my 15th birthday I stopped going to church even on Christmas eve, and when I went again for the first time after nearly 20 years, it really hit me how trite and nonsensical it all was - the stuff did not age well in my absence. I remembered it being boring, but with a certain amount of, say, mystique, for lack of a better word. That has been stripped away, and what is left, viewed from a distance, is ridiculous.
The fool hath said in his heart, There is a God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
Psalm 14, KJV revised edition
