I've crawled out of the hole you're in. I was pissed off at the world for surviving my suicide attempt and was in and out of mental hospitals. I fought my demons and found my meaning in the fight itself. Battling my problems became my purpose, and I was able to eventually get some control over my depression. No god needed. Atheists find meaning the same way religious people do, only we know the onus is on us to find it. Religious people think god will deliver it to them, but they're the ones that are actually finding it.
I believe that every person has the right to take their own life. I just don't think being caught in the throes of severe depression is the best time to make such a serious decision. Sure, it feels like death is the only solution, but that is the chemical imbalance in your brain talking. There are ways you can fix that, and no matter what happens, you always have the control to change your situation. Depression isn't something that can be cured necessarily, but it is something that can be managed. You have to start treating your life as though you have a serious health issue, because you do. You have to adjust your lifestyle accordingly.
Also, remember that your death will most likely have consequences. As someone who found his best friend's dead body hanging from a noose he tied himself, I can attest to that. Don't let your own misery consume you to the point that you hurt the ones around you.
I believe that every person has the right to take their own life. I just don't think being caught in the throes of severe depression is the best time to make such a serious decision. Sure, it feels like death is the only solution, but that is the chemical imbalance in your brain talking. There are ways you can fix that, and no matter what happens, you always have the control to change your situation. Depression isn't something that can be cured necessarily, but it is something that can be managed. You have to start treating your life as though you have a serious health issue, because you do. You have to adjust your lifestyle accordingly.
Also, remember that your death will most likely have consequences. As someone who found his best friend's dead body hanging from a noose he tied himself, I can attest to that. Don't let your own misery consume you to the point that you hurt the ones around you.