Suicide

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I keep trying to elaborate on this, but I find myself so frustrated that I don't even know where to begin.

I don't want to be insulting, but it is not normal to feel frustrated all the time.  Have you considered talking to someone outside an internet forum. . . like a doctor?  It's suprising how often little hiccups in brain chemistry get interpreted by a person as a broken world, when a couple pills a day can bring things into a nicer focus.

I agree. However logical your conclusions may seem, the fact that it's getting to you this much is probably an indication that you could benefit from some form of therapy or counselling. I've mentally been where you are right now, judging by what you've told us. Getting professional help made a massive difference to me. You've nothing to lose by trying it, however pointless it may seem. Believe me, it seems pointless when I started it.