Suicide

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I can attest to the fact that there are situations where "considering suicide" is no longer an accurate description. I've been at the point, more than once, of begging to die in any way possible. I begged my wife to let me kill myself. I've spent every waking moment longing for the sweet release of death, to the point where I can barely consider anything else. This went on for some considerable time, and I still don't know how I ever got through it.

For someone who doesn't improve even after several years, I couldn't imagine them holding on if they had any chance to escape. I had just enough of a grip on myself to still care how it would affect those around me. And once, I've been over that edge. I would have done it, if I had the chance. At such a point, rational thought is completely gone.