(December 7, 2015 at 2:10 pm)ApeNotKillApe Wrote: I did very poorly in secondary school, I skipped the vast majority of my classes, I rarely did any assignments, and like you I took papers given to me and crammed them into my pocket or my backpack and forgot about them. I always felt immensely frustrated by my peers, I couldn't connect with them, it was nothing but gossip and loud stupidity and terrible taste in music, it was tedious and frustrating and left me feeling isolated; I became very bitter and resentful, I became unpleasant to be around, and as a result, I was more isolated. I have come to understand in the years since that my problems in school (and the depression that I still deal with) were the result of a dysfunctional household, my higher-than-average intelligence and unbalanced brain chemistry, none of which can be overcome by continuing to simmer in insecurities and pushing anger onto people that might not deserve it, rather than trying to figure out where that frustration is coming from. Resentment only makes you feel worse, it's an endless cycle where your self-pity justifies your self-pity.
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