RE: How did you become an atheist?
December 23, 2015 at 12:15 am
(This post was last modified: December 23, 2015 at 12:21 am by God of Mr. Hanky.)
(December 22, 2015 at 7:48 pm)KevinM1 Wrote: Always an atheist, didn't realize it until my early 20s.
I think a lot of us are like that - I never decided to be an atheist, I embraced what I realized has always been my true nature. The day that happened was the first when I felt like I really had a good idea who I really am.
When my mother first told me of her god while I was a toddler, I heard of this really serious, and often angry dude who controls all of us, very much like toy people in some kind of a lego or dollhouse land. She didn't put it that way, but what I interpreted sounded a lot like that. He is also completely invisible, yet all-powerful and present everywhere, interacting and intervening in everything even though things just seem to happen on their own. The more I asked, the more silly their answers seemed, but you trust the wisdom of your parents at that age. He sees everything we do, just like Santa Claus, which got me a bit confused when he turned out to be a myth - and I had already asked enough questions on that myth before letting it go that my Mom had to roll her eyes and go "Santa Claus is God!" What, he's God and myth all at the same time?
Later on I had to settle for the "free will" argument when I realized that this god which even the adults of my world still believe in has the power to see all that will happen before it ever does, what I will do, all of my thoughts before and after every event good and bad. So he can make anything good happen, and can change anything, but he chooses to do nothing and let you suffer the random cruelties of this world. You pray, and you get no answers. You try to believe, you make up your mind you will follow that god, which you have to believe in, but where is he, and where are there really any instructions which apply in the real world where you exist? It's the perfect setup to put all the shit of this world on the weak who are its victims, and grind them into the dirt while dignifying those who pray while succeeding at their expense as "The Faithful"!
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