Opening up about being mentally ill

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Thank you to everyone who has shared their experiences. This thread was a really good idea. It's been interesting reading your stories, and I can relate to a lot of it. I'm very sorry for what you've all gone through. You're still here, and that is an achievement in itself. I know all too well. It would have been the easiest thing in the world to have offed myself any time in the last 8 years.

I'm at a point where my mental state is better than it has been throughout this period, I tentatively describe my life as "bearable". I've been at hell's gate, and I've come back to the point of some sort of sanity. I never thought I would. So it can be done.

I'm here to offer my support to all of you, feel free to message me with absolutely anything. Nothing's going to shock me regarding the kind of thoughts that go through our heads.

I try my absolutely fucking hardest to be positive, I always have, even when I was at my worst. And the thing that pissed me off the most was people, even some mental health professionals, saying "well you don't look depressed". Holding it against me that I'm making an effort when all I wanted to do was crumple up in the corner and die.