Maureen Dowd Gets to the heart of the Pervert Priest Scandal

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How do you manage to fail suicide? It's easy enough to kill someone else... how can you possibly fail to commit suicide when you *try* to do it? 0.o

I can understand feeling suicidal and wanting to kill oneself and choosing not to for any number of reasons... but actually failing when one is attempting suicide? Were they physically incapable of killing themself? I just can't take that seriously otherwise.

Apparently you've never been severely depressed and suicidal, then. It may seem like an easy choice to you, either kill yourself or don't kill yourself. But the reality is a lot more complicated. You can't even begin to imagine the agonizing internal struggle that goes on in the mind of a suicidal person. Often there's a small part of them that is not sure about this and wants to be saved, wants help, while consciously they desperately want their suffering to end, so they may choose a method without a 100% success rate. And that's just one example.

When I attempted suicide, I swallowed 700 sleeping pills. You think that would do it. But my mother came home unexpectedly after an hour, and found me barely alive. So technically, I failed at suicide. But that doesn't minimize the fact that my suffering was so great that I saw no other option. Maybe the tiny part of me that thought 'maybe I shouldn't die at 17' is what kept me from jumping off a building (not to mention the paralysis and brain damage I'd be left with if I somehow survived such a 'serious' attempt, consequences which I desperately wanted to avoid).

Sorry, I just had to respond to this, it's an issue very close to home. Please try not to judge the depressed and suicidal unless you've been in their shoes. It's the closest thing to hell on Earth and there are no easy decisions or black-and-white explanations.