I agree with you guys, you can't try to be an atheist. It takes a long time to get to the point (for me it did anyways) to throw away a belief in any god. But, once you are shown the light, you can't unknow that knowledge. Even if you wanted to believe you couldn't anyway. So you were never really an atheist.
Cher
"I have no advice for anybody; except to, you know, be awake enough to see where you are at any given time, and how that is beautiful, and has poetry inside. Even places you hate" -Jeff Buckley
"I have no advice for anybody; except to, you know, be awake enough to see where you are at any given time, and how that is beautiful, and has poetry inside. Even places you hate" -Jeff Buckley