I think there is no more inspiring thing then realize that you responsible to your own deeds and you can do whatever it takes to succeed. You aren't alone at all, what about your family? friends? you can speak with them, express your feelings and tell your desires.
And about your(our, all humanity) psychological need for "father" or higher power you better exchange to believe in science, friends, love, good will and so on...more tangible and essential then to speak/pray to yourself.
And about your(our, all humanity) psychological need for "father" or higher power you better exchange to believe in science, friends, love, good will and so on...more tangible and essential then to speak/pray to yourself.