How i became atheist

[Torin]

Hi everyone,

i am new member in this forum, and i am so glad i found such great community.So first of all, how i become atheist.Well, as a lot of you guys i was born in christian family.Since i was a child my parents always on sundays tooked me to the church.I wasn't very religious but still i believed in god, and that's i was putted on this planet because god wanted me to live.I was always intrested in history and science, and i always tried to seek knowledge.And then i accidently read a book ,,beyond belief" by A.L De Silva.This book criticized christianity, and compared it to buddhism.I was very intrigued by the book, it destroyed my old beliefs about god.That god wasn't that good as it was depicted in movies, and how people talked about him.At first when i read it i could't believe why i never questioned my beliefs.One question lead to another, and i realised that religion is man made, god is man made.Before my conversion to atheism, i asked my parents, grandparents and they all said i was wrong, and i even saw that they afraid to question their belief, they were afraid of even thought of it.And soon they started to ignore me.

Am i not gonna lie at first i was afraid too.At first i was like yeah there may be false things in bible but i still think that supernatural being exists.I was also afraid that my thoughts of disbelief will be punishable by eternity in purgatory. (thought crime ) I calmed myself by saying that i am agnostic.But then i discovered about one man called Christopher Hitchens.I was stunned in his excellent arguments that god never existed, it  always was man made thing.That god was like north korean dicatator, always watching you, following you, and punishing  for your bad deeds.

I started to realise people always wanted explanation about everythin even if it was bad explanation, it is better than none.My relatives, and parents most of them call themselves christians but majority of them haven't even read the bible.Don't get me wrong i love them very much, but in my opinion and many other brilliant people opinion (Richard Dawkins, Sam Harris) those beliefs are false.And those who believe in them are ignorant.

So if you read this far thank you very much, it was crazy journey for me but i still have to learn more(i am only 19).Life is much more beautiful now, as Christopher Hitchens putted it :“Take the risk of thinking for yourself , much more happiness , truth, beauty, and wisdom will come to you that way ..”