Well maybe that resentment comes from a bad experience I had. I tried once at university, speaking to the girl I like. I felt so tired of not being able to do it. Without going into details, it just didnt work out. I was too nervous.
We all know girls tell everything to their friends. Some time later, her friends started making fun of me university. It has been hard to overcome. I think I still havent forgotten about it. It still haunts me. People say "Talk to her, nothing will happen! What can be the worst that could happen?" Or "Why are you afraid? Women dont bite". They may not bite, but have the power to humilliate you. And this is the 2nd time it happens. It happened back when I was at highschool, but that time it did not affect me too much. Maybe this is why I have started feeling resentment towards women. Always so selfish.
I do not understand why I have so bad luck with women. Maybe I have to be more careful. Not like I have much of a choice though... My heart picks whoever it wants.
As of why I have never picked another girl, is because I have strong convictions. I do not want a relationship based on sex, or interests. Yes, I may pick a girl who is attractive, even if I dont really like her. And then what? Hope for me to eventually love her? In any case, this is more of a philosophical conversation, and I do not believe it adds to the main topic.
We all know girls tell everything to their friends. Some time later, her friends started making fun of me university. It has been hard to overcome. I think I still havent forgotten about it. It still haunts me. People say "Talk to her, nothing will happen! What can be the worst that could happen?" Or "Why are you afraid? Women dont bite". They may not bite, but have the power to humilliate you. And this is the 2nd time it happens. It happened back when I was at highschool, but that time it did not affect me too much. Maybe this is why I have started feeling resentment towards women. Always so selfish.
I do not understand why I have so bad luck with women. Maybe I have to be more careful. Not like I have much of a choice though... My heart picks whoever it wants.
As of why I have never picked another girl, is because I have strong convictions. I do not want a relationship based on sex, or interests. Yes, I may pick a girl who is attractive, even if I dont really like her. And then what? Hope for me to eventually love her? In any case, this is more of a philosophical conversation, and I do not believe it adds to the main topic.
