... I don't think I will ever understand "just friends". When I hear it, I understand what's about to happen (and in my short life it hasn't failed so far... perhaps I am unlucky). I state to them that it is what will happen, soon even, and despite typical denials to the contrary it occurs.
Your case could be different though... you've been 'in love' with her for as long as I've been alive. You've had her at least three times (else you could not have lost her three times) over that period. I imagine you've heard all of these lines before... she'll be back. You said yourself that you're not looking and not interested in someone else...
The question is between whether you force the issue with her directly and today, go on with your life and wait for the rebound, or drop her altogether (don't take her back if she comes back). I don't see another option, but then I'm not you.
Your case could be different though... you've been 'in love' with her for as long as I've been alive. You've had her at least three times (else you could not have lost her three times) over that period. I imagine you've heard all of these lines before... she'll be back. You said yourself that you're not looking and not interested in someone else...
The question is between whether you force the issue with her directly and today, go on with your life and wait for the rebound, or drop her altogether (don't take her back if she comes back). I don't see another option, but then I'm not you.
Please give me a home where cloud buffalo roam
Where the dear and the strangers can play
Where sometimes is heard a discouraging word
But the skies are not stormy all day
