@ Everyone on AF: Would you miss me if I left?

[Kernel Sohcahtoa]

I keep not knowing what to post in my How Is Everyone Feeling Right Meow thread...  and not knowing what to put for how I feel.

When it comes down to it I'm feeling unlikable now, for whatever reason, feeling like I've let myself down. I expect better from myself. And a thread like this, as self-pitying and sad and pathetic and desperate as it may seem, is exactly what I need.

Getting help with my mental health soon... but in the meantime damn it's hard. I've been doing great these last few days and now suddenly it hits me. Go long enough without talking to anyone and damn it hits me.

I'm completely new here, and even I can see how special of a community member you are: the reactions of the other posters here shows that you are a leader in this community, one who is respected and admired (very few leaders are able to achieve this).  I must say, I have been impressed by your logic and intelligence, which you have consistently demonstrated throughout the various posts and thread topics that I've read thus far.  Thank you for contributing to this community, and here's to many more contributions from you, sir