@ Everyone on AF: Would you miss me if I left?

[RobertE]

I keep not knowing what to post in my How Is Everyone Feeling Right Meow thread...  and not knowing what to put for how I feel.

When it comes down to it I'm feeling unlikable now, for whatever reason, feeling like I've let myself down. I expect better from myself. And a thread like this, as self-pitying and sad and pathetic and desperate as it may seem, is exactly what I need.

Getting help with my mental health soon... but in the meantime damn it's hard. I've been doing great these last few days and now suddenly it hits me. Go long enough without talking to anyone and damn it hits me.

I did say that I didn't like you that much, and it still stands. However, that aside, you need to just take a break for a while and deal with your health. If you have mental problems, whatever they are, just take a break and do something different. As I have mentioned once before, I suffer from Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy and I have bouts of what you might call, Cluster headaches (suicide headaches) and although I have treatment for one (Epilepsy) I have declined treatment for the other simply because there is nothing that can be done. Just to give you an idea of the pain, imagine you get that cold feeling when you eat an ice cream just above the forehead. Now, that is only temporary, cluster headaches (same sort of pain) can go on for 30-40 minutes easy and no painkiller works. You cannot lie down in a dark room, it is impossible. So, as a human being, I wish you all the very best for the next few days or weeks, and get that help that you want. You will come back on plain form. Good luck.