Mind from the Inside

[Arkilogue]

When I first started being able to get there regularly, I was mentally elated and often times would jet off into space out of pure joy of freedom, passing stars and galaxies at the speed of thought. And when that sense was satisfied, the experience would dissolve and I would find myself back in my body. You know those water tubes the aliens created to view things in the movie "The Abyss" or the tubes of intention in "Donnie Darko"? It's kinda like that. When the intention is satisfied, the tube collapses and you are back where you started having not actually physically gone anywhere. Only your aware/mind was traveling as like light in a fiber optic cable.

This led to me developing what I call "loop technique". Before I leave the body I have an intend experience/data set to recover/bring back/resolve.

This leads me to first profound experience I want to relay: I went in with the intention to confess my sins and atone for my wrongs in life. When I popped into the lucid state, I was in a forest and I knew just over the hill was an old temple. It was right where I expected it to be and it was very old, made of large unfinished stones and covered in moss and vines.

Much like this only nothing modern and covered/surrounded by greenery.



When I entered it was like a beautiful, dusty old abandoned cathedral on the inside with sun shining through elaborate stained glass windows.



I walked towards the altar and there covering the wall behind it were newpaper clippings of all the things I felt bad about in my life. I walk up to it and knelt, to take it all humbly in. I wept in remorse and embraced how I truly felt. The newspaper clipping started to flutter and turned into a flock of white doves as the cathedral dissolve and the birds took off freely into the clear sky.



As this happened, my remorse turned to relief and even joy as these things I had held against myself were acknowledged and released. I woke up in that state of relief and great self acceptance. The internal conflict was resolved.

Second important experience is next...