christian school project

[Arkilogue]

Beither. Or noth.

See that's exactly what I was thinking: present it as my personal, changing/growing path of understanding of the universe and relationship with God. What ever is True (if any) can stand on it's own in the minds and hearts of other truth seekers (preservation). It will act as both solvent (destroyer) to false forms and catalytic (creator) to new ones. And if I don't make it an enjoyable read, people aren't going to enjoy reading it.

I will stand in the only authentic place I can, my own experience and what works for me. And if I can remain at this lowest place, even if everything I assert turns out to be true, then I will be safe from my own ego, un-inflated by the opinion of others. That is the real danger in this endeavor. Death is part and parcel of this life and if i earn a good one, then FIESTA! Throw the confetti!

I'm happy to be "wrong" and remain in idealogical spaces, looked upon as a lunatic. Can you imagine the avalanche a person would have to survive being even somewhat correct on something of this magnitude and importance in the lives of most people on earth? Privately it's a un-ending source of joy but publicly it's terrifying to me, people can be crazy, and I would/will have to walk the straight and narrow path between them. Dancing if I can help it!

The other danger I perceive comes from the firm belief that this schematic of the universe yields an implosive tech that can tap into it's torque/motion and potentially gain unlimited energy. Even/especially if I could produce a mathematic sentence describing it all, I wouldn't publish it. I would/will focus on the internal/spiritual application of this tech so there is less chance of destroying ourselves with it externally. I believe we have done so before.