(October 16, 2016 at 8:18 am)Monalisa Dey Wrote: Hey I am from India and i am a Hindu by religion. I just wanted to discuss some conflicting thoughts I have having about the whole existence of GODHi, firstly I want to say thank u so much for welcoming me here. It feels so good to finally be able to talk about what I have been feeling for years..I am married and my entire family is so orthodox..They do puja everyday after bath and I keep staring pretending to pay my respects or so when actually I think about something else...
My problem is I just dont believe the fact that GOD is there and he watches us and we have to be good otherwise something bad will happen etc etc..
For many years I believed it though.. I always did what is right and before doing anything bad I always used to pray to god and say sorry n stuff.. But all of that is a lie because to be frank I do not believe it..
Hindus have a lot of deities and we have several occasions where we sit around the idol of that deity and give him food and stuff and chant mantras .. I have noticed my entire family just keep their eyes closed and they somehow seem to be so engrossed .. I tried that too.. did not work..
Sometimes I feel so guilty.. Maybe I am wrong..
Just recently I lost my dog.. and people say that if you pray to god n be good then he listens to you..
That is not true.. Sometimes I feel that if I talk about this with my husband or someone else, they will feel that I am a freak bcz as a Hindu it is actually a crime..
तुम जिन्न या भूत नहीं।
कहीं से आये नहीं। किसी ने भेजा नहीं।
किसी ने सोच-समझ कर तुम्हें गढा नहीं।
न तुम आकाश से टपके हो,
न शून्य से प्रकटे हो।
तुम अपने माता-पिता के शरीर से उगे हो – अनायास
कहीं से आये नहीं। किसी ने भेजा नहीं।
किसी ने सोच-समझ कर तुम्हें गढा नहीं।
न तुम आकाश से टपके हो,
न शून्य से प्रकटे हो।
तुम अपने माता-पिता के शरीर से उगे हो – अनायास
