Having a hard time really knowing who to trust in politics anymore

[EruptedCarcassBloat]

So, biases, biases, biases. I have my opinions on news. News has opinions on politics. I have opinions on politics, my political opinions are based on news. News is the only way I can get my political opinions, unless I somehow have first hand experience. 

So who the hell can I trust in the news? There's always two sides saying the exact opposite thing. I used to be on board the whole hilary clinton is corrupt wagon. I watched this 30 minute video by sargon of akkad today called "hilary clinton must lose", detailing the full extent of DNC conspiracy to get hilary elected, media bias favoring hilary, hilary funding isis, and being funded by saudi arabia, lying pathologically or whatever, the whole stupid email scandal thing.

You know, I've heard all these conspiracy theories, but I just don't feel I'm convinced by them anymore. Unfortunately, I've fallen pray before to trusting people because I agree with them on some core ideologies, and not being skeptical about the stuff they say before. Well now I'm skeptical about the stuff being said in the election, I'm skeptical about the stuff that everyone's saying. Because it seems to me that all the anti hilary stuff comes from right wingers, who are full of lies themselves.

But that's just the thing, it's one of those bipartisan issues. I hear conflicting opinions coming from both sides, I hear democrats talking about this corruption stuff, I hear democrats I also really respect like Bill Maher saying that it's rubbish and it's just the republicans trying to screw clinton over. Okay????? You know, I used to be ardently opposed to hilary, because I would buy into all that anti hilary stuff that people I trust have been saying, even people like secular talk radio and the young turks, who I like, are anti clinton. 

At this point I just gotta say, I don't know anymore. I just really have no fucking clue about anything going on in the world anymore, and I feel like I know so little that all the facts that I know might as well just be air that slips right through my grasp. And can I just say how stressful this election season has been? I've never been so involved, so frustrated, and so emotional over one election season in my life. It's been a terrible journey through joy sapping emotions.

Oh dear, you must be new at this, you poor lamb. 
There's a lot of rubbish out there as far as news and politics go. When trying to figure out what is fact and what is fantasy, consider the source.
Be careful about getting your "facts" from comedians like Bill Maher or shows like The Daily Show. I enjoy watching those too but those aren't necessarily sources that show all points of view on a given topic.
And remember, no matter what happens on election day, it's going to be ok. Our Republic has been through worse than this election.

I really don't watch bill maher that often. I watch him sometimes and I love how unapologetically he rips into the right wing, and is unapologetically atheist and progressive. I hear so much anti hilary stuff coming from the right wing. I have heard SO MUCH STUFF about hilary. I've had multiple friends who have had in depth conversations with me about hilary saying she's corrupt, I've listened to video after video of sargon of akkad talking about hilary's corruption, and the 15 minutes of hilary lying video, and followed current news on her from since the beginning of the election on unaccountable amounts of news sources, and was a huge bernie supporter and watched bernie turn into a hilary supporter himself. 

I have my own ideas of why this is happening. I just watched an hour long video on the rubin report this morning with sam harris, someone who I respect and admire dearly. He was saying that the way hilary got into it may not be very admirable, that she's basically in it for herself and she's not very honest and whatever; but looking at her as an alternative to trump she's actually very qualified and most of her issues are actually stuff that we as liberals would agree on. While trump is just, to use my own words, a flaming dumpster fire, with horrible policies and who seems to me to be unfit and mentally unstable to be president of the united states. 

I have my own opinions on this, it's just that there's been so much turmoil throughout the election that after a while it all starts to feel like one big fog. Nothing is concrete, and everything is just this immaterial cloud of contradictory information floating around in front of my face. So yeah it's frustrating to me, because I really do try hard to follow what is happening in this election, and I try desperately to keep myself honest, look at facts without bias and not delude myself, and make sure that I'm being honest with myself when I actually believe some of the things that I say and think. I just don't want to look stupid. That's really fucking difficult this election, trying to not feel like an idiot when you have your political convictions just thrown around like they are. 

Like, I was an ardent anti hilary supporter, now I'm pro hilary. I was literally the person who would go around tearing down hilary and supporting bernie sanders. Now I have to turn around, like people like sam harris and bernie sanders and pretty much every other sensable liberal - I think sam harris said it best, that if there was any other alternative then I wouldn't waste time supporting hilary. but you have to keep your eyes on the bigger picture - and decided that I support hilary because I want trump to lose, and that there's really no good alternatives. And yeah that's one of the things that pisses me off about people who support anti vaxxer jill stein and "the earth is going to be swallowed by the sun so why do we care about global warming" idiots like gary johnson, who would throw their vote away on someone which is basically like giving a vote to trump. Given I don't think it matters much at this point after that devastating video that was leaked of trump. 

Oh, stop.  You're being overly sensitive.  You're the one who is lamenting about how overwhelming and confusing it all is.  She was just empathizing with you in a good-humored fashion.  On top of that, she actually took the time out to offer you some advice in order to help you.  You should be thanking her for taking the time to respond, not getting your panties all in a twist.

I suppose