How I deal with no afterlife

[SuperMarioGamer]

There's no afterlife for any living thing on earth...I mean that's a pretty high bar you're setting to be special.

I could say I'm really special and I should be able to live under water, that would be a lower bar as tons of things live under water.

The point I'm trying to make here is that you don't need to be more special than everything else in the universe to be special. You're special to some people. You're special in you're own little world in you're own little life. Outside of that...being special isn't really important. You exist in a universe that is massive and pretty fucking cool. The world around you is special and you get to experience it.

Thank you, but thinking of myself as special and valuable always creates that conflict I mentioned.  There is no way past that conflict.  Whenever I think of myself as special and valuable, that causes me absolute rage since it is the worst insult to that value and specialness to have me just forever thrown and decayed away.  It just doesn't work for me.

So, like I said, the only way for me to remove that conflict would be to deem myself as nothing special and nothing valuable at all.