Hi everyone 
I just recently signed up to this forum, I'm 22 y/o female, ex-muslim from Asia.. that's why I call it the dark side. I've been an agnostic for more than 2 years now.. much comfortable in the ' I don't know ' position rather than Atheism, I'm just not sure if God exists and do not want to deny Him maybe because I was such a religious muslim that it had taken a mental toll on me. Still a closeted agnostic, but not likely to get killed in where I live, muslims here generally peaceful people and we have been living with non-muslims in harmony for generations and I don't want to ruin that. After how much my mind have changed these past few years, I feel really lonely both inside and outside. To realize that I have to lie to everyone around me, friends and family, having to pretend, having to try, this could make me go mental. This feeling of being very different in a bad way in the community is unimaginably horrible. Anyway, I'm here to gain much more understanding of agnosticism/atheism, considering that I have not much basic understanding of it , I only encountered the term atheism when I was 17
I just recently signed up to this forum, I'm 22 y/o female, ex-muslim from Asia.. that's why I call it the dark side. I've been an agnostic for more than 2 years now.. much comfortable in the ' I don't know ' position rather than Atheism, I'm just not sure if God exists and do not want to deny Him maybe because I was such a religious muslim that it had taken a mental toll on me. Still a closeted agnostic, but not likely to get killed in where I live, muslims here generally peaceful people and we have been living with non-muslims in harmony for generations and I don't want to ruin that. After how much my mind have changed these past few years, I feel really lonely both inside and outside. To realize that I have to lie to everyone around me, friends and family, having to pretend, having to try, this could make me go mental. This feeling of being very different in a bad way in the community is unimaginably horrible. Anyway, I'm here to gain much more understanding of agnosticism/atheism, considering that I have not much basic understanding of it , I only encountered the term atheism when I was 17
