My house and mental health issues

[Brian37]

A couple of professionals have told me they think I have Dysthymia but I'm no longer on medication for it. Are you on meds? I can relate to living alone. I have an issue with clutter but I try to throw something away each day in my big trashcan. We just gotta keep goin'.

No, I don't really want to try them because some of them have horrible side effects including thoughts of suicide. But the clutter and messiness seems to run in my family. My biological uncle took care of my biological grandfather, and it was the house I lived in before I got adopted. When I went to that house for the first time after meeting them, I noticed the kitchen was a wreck, dishes and pots and pan all over the counter, piled to the ceiling, clutter everywhere.  My biological grandmother smoked in the house so much so, that her antique doll collection had faded and yellowed over several decades. 

Long ago, when my mom started planning for the inevitable of course she said everything went  to me. I told her flat out that I was not going to keep her oil paintings and that she should give them to a friend, which I ended up doing. I don't like having expensive things because they don't seem to last around me. 

Part of why I miss living with my late adoptive mom. She wouldn't let me get away with being messy. I never told her how bad the house got. 

But again, the biggest relief was knowing the dog will finally be taken care of now.