(October 5, 2017 at 10:11 pm)Crossless2.0 Wrote:(October 5, 2017 at 10:07 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote: Having genuine remorse for past mistakes takes humility and introspection. Don't undermine those great qualities, which you obviously have. <3
Humility and introspection are good qualities, to be sure. But this degree of self-loathing seems more like inverted megalomania.
Darkest of souls? Deserving worse punishment than most people on earth? Really?
You don't understand what I been through, I understand my madness more than anyone else. I don't understand other people's madness well, I understand my own. Mine stemmed from me being brought to a blessed place but then holding on a to a cursed sword till it brought me to the shadows and till I forgot the blessed name of God and cannot distinguish falsehood from truth.
In the rebellion, I deceived myself that I didn't know God to the extent I made arguments against His Glory and Praise which some of you might remember (it was before CL was even here).
I have been so immersed in delusion, and my company from the demons, the dark spirit, is what I embrace, while outwardly drawing knowledge from the light.
The veils are increasing and the dark night is getting darker and the evils increasing and my vision further and further from God...because even now when I outwardly write these words, I barely care, I barely move towards God and try to subdue the darkness.
It's almost like it's all the same, the darknes and the light, the uncleaness and blessings, like it's all the same.... the wicked and good.... like it doesn't matter.
