What would you do if you found out God existed

[WinterHold]

Humility and introspection are good qualities, to be sure. But this degree of self-loathing seems more like inverted megalomania.

Darkest of souls? Deserving worse punishment than most people on earth? Really?  

You don't understand what I been through, I understand my madness more than anyone else. I don't understand other people's madness well, I understand my own.  Mine stemmed from me being brought to a blessed place but then holding on a to a cursed sword till it brought me to the shadows and till I forgot the blessed name of God and cannot distinguish falsehood from truth.

In the rebellion, I deceived myself that I didn't know God to the extent I made arguments against His Glory and Praise which some of you might remember (it was before CL was even here).

I have been so immersed in delusion, and my company from the demons, the dark spirit, is what I embrace, while outwardly drawing knowledge from the light.

The veils are increasing and the dark night is getting darker and the evils increasing and my vision further and further from God...because even now when I outwardly write these words, I barely care, I barely move towards God and try to subdue the darkness.

It's almost like it's all the same, the darknes and the light, the uncleaness and blessings, like it's all the same.... the wicked and good.... like it doesn't matter.

That is the saddest story I ever heard.

So I should:
1- Cut you a slack because you're crazy ! so you can say any kind of shit (including shit like this, that includes death threats to almost all humans who defy you in your faith):
https://atheistforums.org/thread-51114-p...pid1624137

2-You just poop on me; and I leave you because you are crazy ! reminding me with that terrorist taking refuge behind women and children to escape slaps.

3-Be a man and handle the shitty faith you carry. Shiite Twelver faith is pretty violent, and nothing justifies the amounts of blood it calls to spill. Be a man and quit hiding behind excuses like "I'm crazy". If you're crazy; you should be put in a hospital because you spread dangerous "crazy faiths" just like any respectful cultist. The KKK or ISIS are not asked about "if they were crazy" or not. We know they are twisted, fucks. Hitler was a crazy fuck. Stalin was a crazy fuck. All have been "through a lot"; just like Saints who went through a lot too.

But Saints don't practice Twelver Shiite faiths that call to massacre most of the world (especially Sunnies):

https://atheistforums.org/thread-51114-p...pid1623364

4-Crazy fucks blow shit up. People die; because crazy fucks are not put in hospitals. You're not the first human to have "mental problems", many on this forum have health problems, but once we feel the symptoms we go get treatment instead of whining and calling for the "grand Jihad against Sunnies". Terrorists are all crazy fucks, the modern age is defined by mental illness, many humans went through a lot, and many are overloaded with threats from crazy fucks hating other shit with passion.

5-Alhlu Bayt/ if you fail to convert anybody, then you saw God/ if you fail to convince anybody, then you are possesed by demons/ if you are confronted with the danger your ideas cause, you take refugee behind mental illness.

1 Last thing..Did you take the shower I told you take? And I'm waiting for you to shift your personality into "Hamza; the funny" or "Hamza the victim".
And remember: missionary business requires brains. You didn't find the proper pussy in Shiite forums?