Emotions are intrinsically good and bad

[brewer]

That sounds like a healthy dose of self pity. 

In what ways have your been victimized? 

What are your emotional traumas?

I have never been victimized.  I live with a loving and caring family.  I just am simply aware that life is absurd since people die shortly and that is it.  There are innocent people who are poor and there are cruel people who are rich.  Therefore, all I have done here is applied this in creating my worldview.  As for my emotional traumas, they were in regards to things such as having a horrible near death experience where I experience the horrible nightmares that I have had.  I have had thoughts of avoiding certain negative thoughts which brought my life more and more misery.  I was avoiding the idea of being depressed and that just made me depressed and miserable.  It was a cycle that I finally broke free of.

As for the absurdity of life, all I have done here is applied that in creating my worldview.  There are innocent people who are poor and there are cruel people who are rich.  So, what if the good and bad value in our lives works no differently?  What if it is only the happy people who live the good lives while the miserable and depressed people live the bad lives regardless if they are innocent or cruel?  It doesn't matter who you are or what you think.  If you have a lot of money, then you are rich.  If you don't have that much money at all, then you are poor.  In that same sense, if you are happy, then you are living a good, beautiful, and worthwhile life.  If you are miserable and depressed, then you are living the bad, shit life.  Depressed people who think they are living the good life would be no different than a poor person believing he has won the lottery or that he has earned a lot of money when he hasn't.  The poor person wouldn't be rich or earning big bucks, but he might have, at least, some money to get him by in life.  Likewise, the depressed person might have some degree of positive emotion to give his life, at least, some small degree of good values.

Blah, blah, blah. Good bye.