New atheist here, gotta say, not loving it

[Amarok]

Thank you for the responses, guys.

What changed was that I lost what little hope I had. The hope that there was a reason for suffering in the world, that there was some transcendent goodness to the universe.

Sure, I have hobbies and family and friends and all that, but they're just conditional, material....things.

Like...I don't know, I feel that I don't have a reason to do anything now. I'm just an animal with animal fears and desires and there's else to it.

1. Suffering is a part of life it exists because we exist is that not enough of a reason but we are not slaves to it. And why need goodness be transcendent rather then right here ?

2.  And you are a conditional mostly material being . So is it really so bad ?

3. Wanting to do something is not enough ? You are indeed an animal with fears and desires and that's not enough ? Why is being an animal less ? Why are fears and desires not enough ? Would more really make you that much happier ?