This is why a lot of us feel that religion, especially those that stress obeying an authority figure, is damaging. When you live to please such a figure, even if you're not sure it's there, and that's taken from you, suddenly your purpose is gone. And here's the twisted part: religion makes living for yourself a crime. It's designed that way in order to guilt people into staying or rejoining.
You are not selfish for wanting to live your life the way you want. You are not a bad person for wanting it. You are not letting anyone down. A lot of the people here deconverted and know what you're going through. You are not alone.
You are not selfish for wanting to live your life the way you want. You are not a bad person for wanting it. You are not letting anyone down. A lot of the people here deconverted and know what you're going through. You are not alone.