New atheist here, gotta say, not loving it

[Simon Moon]

So, I've been denying my atheism for years, but man, I just can't do it anymore. That said, there's a reason I've been avoiding it. I'm terrified right now. I don't get how anyone's supposed to be happy like this.

I feel like...all I can do is cope with life now. I don't see what there is to look forward to, or to take reassurance in. Everything just seems empty.

(Why yes, I'm on meds and seeing a counselor. Doesn't help much.)

The universe is so much more awesome, beautiful, amazing without deities! When I became deconverted, there was a brief period of existential angst, but once I figured out that I got rid a bunch of false beliefs, and am now able to accept anything that is best supported by evidence, my entire world became brighter.

See if you can find atheist and freethinker groups in your area, so you don't feel to alone with your disbelief. Support groups are very helpful.

Not sure if you heard about this organization, but it also may be helpful -

https://www.seculartherapy.org/