How do you reconcile your god, the mass murderer?

[Whateverist]

Thanks but no thanks.  I prefer to let god be a mystery and spend my reading time on good novels.

God will try to impress you of the truth, regardless. By the novels if he has to. Nature, the circumstances in life, love, people. 
Angels of God have watched over you since you were born, making sure that whatever happened to you was something you could handle, and would not affect your opportunities to connect with God. 
Will God ever give up on you? No. Will he force or manipulate you? No, that wouldn't be love. 
Will he do a miracle to wake you up? Yes if it works. 
Will he miss you if you are not saved? 
I don't know, because if he did, it would be forever, and I don't know whether he could handle that.
I don't have the guts to ask God that question, "will he miss the lost?" because I am afraid the answer is something I could not handle.

Hey, don't you lose any sleep over it. I realize you know exactly what it all means for God as you conceive of Him but that may not be as significant as you imagine. I have an entirely different take on what this god business is all about. I'll be fine but thanks for our concern.

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They always say that, don't they?

Does anybody really know you and your story?

More importantly, do any two people who claim to know God as well as you do ever agree on who He is?  Rare, very rare.