This thread surprises me in a good way. Theists appear honest. They will not say that they don't want to believe in a nonexistent god. That's honest. But it still puzzles me. Why would you want to believe in something that does not exist? It's different than wishing something might exist. I wish for all sorts of things. But I don't believe in them just because they would be nice. Why would you delude yourself that Way?
If there is a god, I want to believe that there is a god. If there is not a god, I want to believe that there is no god.