CM, do what gives you joy, and that doesn't hurt anyone else. I'm betting that the chemo medicine is still hijacking your brain. My youngest brother went through surgery, chemo and radiation for laryngeal cancer, and that stuff messed him up, psychologically, badly. I don't mean homicidal maniac, or anything like that. Just the memory and attitudinal aspects. Please just grit your teeth and hold on tight. It'll get better. Also, it's nice to see that you are back and posting. 
If you get to thinking you’re a person of some influence, try ordering somebody else’s dog around.
