Having such a hard time in High School right now
March 23, 2018 at 8:43 pm
(This post was last modified: March 23, 2018 at 8:52 pm by Distheist.)
I'm a male Freshmen in High School having a really hard time with making friendships. I've always had a hard time connecting and opening up with people and being plain lonely but its been getting really bad this year.
I live in a Suburb in Grand Rapids, Michigan and also happen to be Gay and an atheist. and I hate it. I hate how people treat me. It's not just because I'm an Atheist or Gay, it's me. They treat me like crap for no reason. I've been spit on in a crowded area in the school just for laughs, I've been taunted at, I take choir and all the boys in my section sit away from me because they don't like me leaving me to sit in my own row, Boys will falsely report me for sexual harassment to the administration for the fun of it, I sit all alone at a lunch table table during lunch, a group of students during PE class will target me and throw dodge balls at me as hard as they can, locker rooms are a horror story, I can't even change in one without being harassed that I'm looking at boys in it. AND I JUST take it all. It's just so humiliating to be treated like this and not do anything. Sometimes it makes me just wanna climb onto my bed and cry for a few hours.
I'm not a horrible person, I get good grades, but i can never maintain a good friendship for long. The area i live around 75% of students go to Church, which is absolutely fine with me, but does result in a culture clash in between me and the majority of the students in my school. I also am not interested at all in dating, which is again absolutely fine if they're doing it, but i just believe the chance of meeting someone i want to spend the rest of my life with and meeting them in high school is so slim.
I live in a Suburb in Grand Rapids, Michigan and also happen to be Gay and an atheist. and I hate it. I hate how people treat me. It's not just because I'm an Atheist or Gay, it's me. They treat me like crap for no reason. I've been spit on in a crowded area in the school just for laughs, I've been taunted at, I take choir and all the boys in my section sit away from me because they don't like me leaving me to sit in my own row, Boys will falsely report me for sexual harassment to the administration for the fun of it, I sit all alone at a lunch table table during lunch, a group of students during PE class will target me and throw dodge balls at me as hard as they can, locker rooms are a horror story, I can't even change in one without being harassed that I'm looking at boys in it. AND I JUST take it all. It's just so humiliating to be treated like this and not do anything. Sometimes it makes me just wanna climb onto my bed and cry for a few hours.
I'm not a horrible person, I get good grades, but i can never maintain a good friendship for long. The area i live around 75% of students go to Church, which is absolutely fine with me, but does result in a culture clash in between me and the majority of the students in my school. I also am not interested at all in dating, which is again absolutely fine if they're doing it, but i just believe the chance of meeting someone i want to spend the rest of my life with and meeting them in high school is so slim.
