(April 13, 2018 at 2:07 am)suffering23 Wrote: My mom and I were low-key arguing when I said she believed in Jesus Christ more than she believes in me.
There was no hesitation or second thought. She puts Jesus before her children.
I feel cheap and hopeless. I cannot process it. I do not want a relationship with her anymore.
Someone please make me feel better
What a selfish POS you are.
Do you even know what it means to put God or Christ first?
Of course not all you know is your not #1
Let's just say you had kids of your own and one was a selfish POS to degree that it made even you sick. (Because despite what people tell there kids you will favor one over another and you can even come to the end of your rope with one or aother.) then maybe ou would understand being a parent is not the key to unconditional love.
Lets say your kid has a smoldering or underlining personality disorder that causes you pain let's say they re overly needy and can't won't stop a demand for constant attention or affirmation that they are on top all the time.. beyond any normal or healthy relationship. Let's say you feed this kid this insane level of attention but it's not enough.. let's say the older this emotion leech gets the more it needs from you.. so again with the understanding you are a finite resource/you have limits, where d you go to continue to love something that has sapped every ounce of natural love you have in your mind body or spirit?
Now if you FOOLISHLY put this POS of kid first, once your love ran out, that would be it. However if/when you put God first you ability to love forgive and put things behind you becomes far greater, one because God works with in a family to help sift out and identify the selfish, and help re-establish health new boundaries so that both parent and child could live together and one not be a leach to the other. And even when you do run out of your personal love, you can still offer the POS God's love even if he or she is completely undeserving of any of it.
