(April 15, 2018 at 12:26 pm)Hammy Wrote:(April 15, 2018 at 11:56 am)henryp Wrote: To me it appeared there was an awareness on some level that you're deluding yourself.
At it appeared that way to you because you have crap reasoning skills.
I can come across as really offended and pissed off and I just do it for fun I don't actually give a shit. I act aggressive and that's different to being genuinely angry. My behavior doesn't match my emotions (whatever they are). I mostly have more modes than moods. That's what I like to call them sometimes anyway.
It amuses me when a Trumptard will see me acting all aggressive and calling fucking idiots fucking idiots, and the Trumptard is like "I must have touched a nerve" and the other trumptard kudoses them. It makes me laugh my balls off because I'm here all deadpan knowing that they're completely oblivious to how I actually feel because I'm not a normal person I'm fucking weird but I'm also fucking rational. If anything I'm too rational.
And I can say whatever the fuck I want because there's no reason not to. It would be irrational to repress my passions. Pragmatically irrational, and pointless.
But for me my 'passions' are not the same as most. I can behave in ways that if it was any other person they'd be genuinely angry or offended or have their feelings hurt, but to me it's all just a thing people do. Don't have to feel emotional to behave emotional. In fact, the fact I don't feel anything means I can behave however the fuck I want because I'm not limited by my feelings. And it isn't fake to do so because how can I fake what I feel if I am not even aware of what I'm supposed to be faking? My behaviors never imply emotion even when it's misleading.
Oh, it's not calling fucking idiots fucking idiots. It's when someone you consider 'friendly' lets slip a bit of honesty. But maybe that actually supports what you say about 'truly believing', because the couple times I've seen it happened, you took it differently than just about everything else. And the common thread seemed to be others perception of you not matching either your perception of yourself, or maybe your perception of their perception of you.
It's all very interesting.