RE: Does one need to go through traumatic experience to truly appreciate living?
May 13, 2018 at 11:39 pm
Depends on the individual. And I am PROFOUNDLY happy Aegon is doing so well !!
Had a rough go with hitting bottom/first stepping and then 'enjoyed' (really, but had no basis for comparison so underappreciated it) my first 6 months of sobriety.
And then jumped into the AIDS crisis as a hospice volunteer and essentially earned a not to be realized for nearly 30 years PTSD issue. I'd almost but not quite consider my experience with it to be in the range of what should be considered 'normal', but I'd hasten to add many or most others I've talked to about my 'primary' symptom and how it presented itself in 2 quite different modes have indicated they would consider it debilitating. I've had profound spells of INTENSE survivors guilt since 1987 it feels awful when it arises, except on some rare occasions it presents itself in a shroud of white hot euphoria, and that feels even worse.
I hasten to add, there were several other volunteers in the hospice group I joined and they thrived on the experience. And I note between encountering Brian and my unexpected HIV results, had I missed either, the PTSD would have been 'profoundly' less in my case.
Had a rough go with hitting bottom/first stepping and then 'enjoyed' (really, but had no basis for comparison so underappreciated it) my first 6 months of sobriety.
And then jumped into the AIDS crisis as a hospice volunteer and essentially earned a not to be realized for nearly 30 years PTSD issue. I'd almost but not quite consider my experience with it to be in the range of what should be considered 'normal', but I'd hasten to add many or most others I've talked to about my 'primary' symptom and how it presented itself in 2 quite different modes have indicated they would consider it debilitating. I've had profound spells of INTENSE survivors guilt since 1987 it feels awful when it arises, except on some rare occasions it presents itself in a shroud of white hot euphoria, and that feels even worse.
I hasten to add, there were several other volunteers in the hospice group I joined and they thrived on the experience. And I note between encountering Brian and my unexpected HIV results, had I missed either, the PTSD would have been 'profoundly' less in my case.
The granting of a pardon is an imputation of guilt, and the acceptance a confession of it.
