Dear Dragonfly,
The first step in recovering from any addiction - and religion is nothing other than an addiction - is to acknowledge that you need help. Congratulations for taking the first step. To paraphrase one of our more religious idiots around here Ask (for help) , Seek (answers) , Get Better.
I would suggest reading Israel Finkelstein's "The Bible Unearthed" as it will tell you that the OT is full of shit.... just like the NT. Finkelstein is an archaeologist so it can be a bit dry in spots but reality is frequently dry.
The first step in recovering from any addiction - and religion is nothing other than an addiction - is to acknowledge that you need help. Congratulations for taking the first step. To paraphrase one of our more religious idiots around here Ask (for help) , Seek (answers) , Get Better.
I would suggest reading Israel Finkelstein's "The Bible Unearthed" as it will tell you that the OT is full of shit.... just like the NT. Finkelstein is an archaeologist so it can be a bit dry in spots but reality is frequently dry.