Just wanted to thank everyone in this thread. I think what I'm having is "cognitive dissonance." Part of my mind is still hanging onto fears, while my rational mind is making progress. The process is painful as hell, but (I'm told) worth it. Three steps forward, two back.
It's surprisingly hard to find a secular therapist who takes Medicaid, but I'm working on it. I did contact my psychiatrist, and she's prescribed something to help me with obsession. I see her later this week as well.
Tomorrow I'm taking to dinner an atheist who had been a Christian well into his adulthood, and we're going to talk about his deconversion process. The atheist community here (SoCal) that I've been in touch with has been very supportive. It's really made an impression on me that atheists, out of kindness and without ulterior motive, are trying to help me. So much for the theory that only good can come from God and every other righteousness is as "filthy rags" to Him. I'm so looking forward to being free from this bullshit.
Thanks again.
It's surprisingly hard to find a secular therapist who takes Medicaid, but I'm working on it. I did contact my psychiatrist, and she's prescribed something to help me with obsession. I see her later this week as well.
Tomorrow I'm taking to dinner an atheist who had been a Christian well into his adulthood, and we're going to talk about his deconversion process. The atheist community here (SoCal) that I've been in touch with has been very supportive. It's really made an impression on me that atheists, out of kindness and without ulterior motive, are trying to help me. So much for the theory that only good can come from God and every other righteousness is as "filthy rags" to Him. I'm so looking forward to being free from this bullshit.
Thanks again.
