IF you deconverted in midlife, can you help?

[AFTT47]

I'm one of the life-long atheists but I do fear death. I guess I'm atypical of atheists in that I'm not okay with the fact that I don't have the power to live as long as I want to. I have nothing but derision at attempts to sugar-coat this.

As far as dealing with it, I guess it's the same as dealing with anything negative that's out of our control. There is no sense complaining that rain is wet or that it gets so damn hot here in Phoenix. There's just no point in focusing on negatives we currently have no ability to do anything about.

I appreciate your honesty. Yeah, for me the end is like an hourglass that I can't help viewing as half-empty. It's like a shadow that's always on my mind. I try not to focus on it, but I have a lot of trouble with that. 

Dragonfly, I urge you to watch this video. It's a documentary done by theoretical physicist Brian Green where he explains how Einstein's General Theory of Relativity requires that all of time is extant. The past is not actually gone, the future is not non-existent. It's all there. Life still has a beginning and an end but that window of time when we are alive exists as long as the universe exists. I'm not sure what to make of that from a metaphysical standpoint but it's one of the things that give me some small measure of comfort.

I don't know how much theoretical physics you'e familiar with but don't be intimidated by this. Brian Green does a superb job explaining it in everyday terms.