Do u want there to be a God? Any God?

[unsapien]

I adhere to many things.  Atheism, however, concerns one's state of belief in gods.

Do you understand?

I think you don't understand.  You choose to be atheist.  Why?  Blind reason?  If not, there must be something.

There are in fact atheists that aren't atheists because they want to be. People like me that spent 15 years of their life reading a looking into many different religions hoping to find something there, and just gave up because they couldn't find any reason to believe that any of them were true.